It feels fake, like our whole friendship has been fake. That you were only around because you felt sorry for me. That’s not what I wanted. Not at all. That’s what I got and that’s what I have to deal with.

I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask to fall for you. I didn’t ask to be hurt so many times that I can barely see straight. I didn’t ask to feel this sickness when I see your face or hear your voice. I didn’t ask for ANY sympathy. I just made so many decisions with my heart and I fell because of it.

So I am asking this now. Tell me why you stuck around. Tell me if our friendships been fake. Tell me which lies are truth and which truth are lies. Tell me which decisions you made were for what was best for both you and me.

I know why you made your final decision but don’t tell me anymore of how I don’t know what love is. Our views are different. How I am going to end up alone. How selfish I am. Remember who wanted you to be happy.

I need a clear head and I think I deserve that much.